Another long post. Really damn long man. VERY VERY LONG. Even i also buey tahan.

u can skip to the last few paragraphs if u are bored.

I'm so disturbed by the fact that Saddam Hussein has been executed. The videos I saw on msnbc.com showed a man expressing no fear at all and remained defiant even in the hour of his own execution. That defiance reminded me of Herman Goring, the 2nd in command of the Third Reich during the Nuremberg Trials. If u watched the 3 part miniseries of Nuremberg, you will get what i mean. The defiant Goring would wear sun glasses in the courtroom when a witness is presented in the court for the judge, he would not wear the earphones to listen to the testimony of the witness because he did not want to hear the translation and he strongly believes that anti-Semitism in Nazi Germany has no difference between the segregation laws in USA. That defiance brought respect to the fellow defendants(excluding Albert Speer) and boost their confidence in hope of winning the trials. With his practical and quick response to the questions asked about the crimes committed by the Nazis, the defendants won the early rounds of the trials, prompting the allies to change the course of the trials as they were afraid all defendants would be acquitted for crimes against humanity.

Despite being defiant and not remorseful, Saddam was sentenced to death by hanging, just like Herman Goring. Both of them were denied the opportunity to die a soldier's death, i.e by shooting. Both were charged with crimes against humanity, with Goring being the most extreme. Saddam was hanged eventually and Goring committed suicide much to the dismay of the allies.
Even though both committed crimes against humanity, I think both of them deserved the right to choose how they were going to die. However, i am against capital punishment because i believe the notion that no one has the right to be the bearer of death of another, no matter how serious the crime is.

I heard from the news that an Indonesian ferry has just sunk and more than 400 went missing. Its really sad to know that such tragic events can happen 2 days before a new year. The reason why i wrote about this was because I saw waves that went 3 storeys high (or the height of the ferry i was on) when I was in Thailand travelling on a medium size ferry, capable of ferrying 200 or so people. It was cool for a moment lah, some ang mohs went to the top of the ferry to sun-tan thinking that they wont get wet. But in the end, everyone was soaked. The ship didnt rocked as violently as that Indonesian ferry(choy!) but the waves was huge enough and strong enough to engulf us mann. Now it reminds me of the movie, Poisedon, in which a rouge wave capsized the cruise ship, bigger than Titanic. (dunno true or not)

Talking about the Thailand trip, it was fun, no thanks to my uncle(i went there with my uncle). I saw the nice beautiful beaches in Phuket, snorkeled there too and bargain like siao in Hat Yai. I see alot of trans in Hat Yai lor, met one sommore. I didnt know the person there was a trans because the person there looks like some hot Thai girl. Finally when we leaving the shop, my uncle gave that person small sum of tip, initially that person smiled and I was expecting a very feminine thank you. The next moment was quite shocking, coz he replied with 2 palms together said Thank You in Thai in a male voice. I wasnt disrespecting them by appearing shock, i was just shocked lah.

Everything went well in Thailand until the day when lim peh decided to buy a guitar from Hat Yai. I saw a Jem look-alike guitar made by Barracuda. I decided to buy there since its only 400 SGD there and 1700 SGD back home. I was curious why the guitar was made by Barracuda and not Ibanez and i soon realised the pickups on that guitar is not D'Marzio and the wood they used to make the guitar has different quality compared to Ibanez made Jem, thats why it cost only 400 SGD. Anyway, that guitar shop guy has alot of integrity, even though I was a potential customer. He said buying in thailand is actually more ex than Singapore because Thailand charges 200% tax. But nvm, i was too embarrased to buy from him because if i were to buy, it would be like going against good advice.

I decided to go to some old man shop. Thats where i got really pissed off. This old man told me i can't try the guitars with a pick becos he was afraid I would scratch it. I was thinking if its accoustic guitar, its okay without a pick. But with an electric, i need to hear how it sound like when i do pinch harmonics, when i do sweeping on 3 strings, when i palm mute, when i do fast alternate picking. But after awhile, i said nevermind, just let me use without the pick. I thought everything was okay, then this old man started to recoil the wire, off the amplifier and decided not to sell me, even though i told him i would not use a pick. Fuck man, i was so damn pissed. Where got ppl do business like that 1? My uncle told me that night that he believe the old man was like that because he thot i wasn't going to buy, only to try. @#$%

ok lah, this post really damn long liao but i have alot of things to say but i can't blog it here either. I wanna talk about the party i had at my cousin's house, the party with elvan and gang and so on and on. but they are damn draggy. So i just blog what's important.

Anyway, tml is new year liao lor, 2007! And very soon, lim peh going to become a soldier lor, an honour in other countries, maybe here also, but something to drag going to right here. I will be missing alot of my friends also lor, like the chua chu kang cum bukit batok gang, benji+jesse+thatwholegroup of people, elvan and gang, naraen n gang, my guitar buddies, few people from my jc class like xl, bill and xc and of course not forgetting the most impt thing in my life, my guitar! hawhawhaw!

Before the clock strikes 12 tonight ah, limpeh want to thank...(sound very bo liao right, but lim peh loves my peng you mah!) for making this year damn shiok lor.


J chua for introducing to me good music, a gd fren for like 4 years, someone able to go out with and talk nonsense without any strings attached and shawn, clement, yu hsien(he's back from US till tuesday), alvin ong and harshal for the same reasons and we will still remain the chua chu kang cum bukit batok gang. hawhawhaw! (btw alvin ong, j chua pissed with ur november 2005 post. hawhaw, the one which u walked with harshal at westmall)

naraen n winston for being the most crappiest bunch of jokers i ever met. I picked up the hawhawhaw laugh from u guys, the soniyerbitchernayi from u guys and all the crappiest things i ever known and i also started playing CS again becoz of u guys.

benji, jesse, wei yu, xue cong, yanyi, quan you, xing long for being my great buddies in and out of school. For having lunch with me, flag poled me twice this year, video taped my candid moments and putting up on you tube sommore and getting the principals involved, talk cock with me, help me alot in my sch work, understand whats life, asked the girl i like whether she got stead, for calling me monkey, spamming my blog and yes I WILL NEVER FORGET THE DAY U GUYS KIDNAPPED ME BEFORE GRADUATION AND TORTURED ME AFTER THE A LEVELS. haha!

elvan, ivan, wei sin, manoj, dinah, melissa for being my great buddies. We talk alot alot alot of cock everywhere we go and u guys have the greatest sense of humour. I would laugh non-stop with u guys lor. Must thank you guys for being my fashion makeover artist, hawhawhaw and for inviting me to all kinds of freaking fun parties with all the nice drinks.

bill and wt for having paper ball fights with me in class and to practise my hokkien swearing on.
calvin tan, jeremy frois, qing lun and bryan kwek for being great friends even after we left sji
kzh and jasper my internet buddies who has not forget me after we haven met up for so long
and
of course to the girl that i have like for like 1.5 yrs but nvr had the guts to tell her ah. heehee.

hawhaw, thats all man. so damn long, dunno who will read this anyway.

I will disappear

Hello!

I'm blogging from my pentium 3 pc. hawhaw! finally the internet is up on this pc and i can play games with my bro now!

i will be leaving for thailand for an eight days trip, so if u guys want me to buy anything for you and if you are lucky enough, i might check my inbox(if i can find a cybercafe) when you send me a request through email.

Lim peh sitting thai airways only lor, unlike that ivan ong. go thailand sit first class 1 lor. lucky bastard.

I finally bought a LED ZEPPLIN T-Shirt from ZARA man! Wah lau, cost me a whopping 60 bucks man. I can buy 6 months worth of strings man! BUT NEVERMIND, ITS LED ZEPPLIN. I'm still saving up for that 200 bucks LED ZEPPLIN platinum collection at THE CD SHOP. I saw THE WHO and GUNS N ROSES T-shirt at Zara too. But it will cost me 180 bucks to buy all of them. =((((

Im so fucking happy right now, coz my cousin is a walking rock dictionary. He has the rarest of the most rare songs from the super duper uber extremely rare bands man. Bands like Kane Roberts, Ratt, GUN, Bad English, Pretty Boy Floyd and many many more. Not only that, he has all kinds of genres man, ranging from baroque to contemporary classical, classic punk to vintage rock, oldies to new age, swing jazz to avant garde jazz. OH MAN! I ripped all these music from his pc to my IPOD. ITS GOOD SHIET MAN. I copied 700 chinese pop music somemore. Thats not all too, i have malay, thai, korean and japan pop and unfortunately(for me) there is also techno. Argh, i hate techno.

Ok, thats for now man. im going to pack my bag. Im not really looking forward to go Thailand actually, but yesterday trip out with elvan and the gang made me realise i need more clothes and buying at Singapore is really kaninah expensive. Hawhaw!! time to go slash price in Thailand, the land of smiles.....



.....or not.
My cousin got slapped by a calculator thrown by a Thai who is obviously not smiling because my cousin slashed too much. hawhawhaw!

I'm getting mouldy

I was supposed to go out with the class for ice skating but they cancelled it last night. Argh! I was looking forward to this trip man. =( It seems that everytime when I am excited about the ice skating trip organised by the class, it will be cancelled in the end. hmmph.

I rent 6 dvds cum vcds and watch them in 2 days. It gives me headaches at the end of the day though but i would'nt deny that some of the videos are nice. Personally, I love Hard Candy, Be with Me and The Terminal.

Be With me is a very inspiring, touching and introspective kind of movie that makes you ask whether if true love really exist, regardless whether the person is in his/her teenage years, middle age or the old age and Eric Khoo made a point not to leave out true love among homosexuals. Although he got a little bit draggy on the memoirs of Theresa Chan(this movie is part memoirs, part story kind of movie), i still think overall the movie is pretty good. Go watch it man!

Hard Candy makes me go sick actually. I wanted to watch this after my promos, but one of my friend has'nt had his birthday yet. Its produced by Liongates, the production company that produces the Saw series. Its amazing that Lion Gates could produce such a thriller and provocative movie with the tight budget they have. Its like SAW 1, they play with the audience's mind and "test" their moral and ethics values. At the end of the movie, a twist unimaginable occurs and the audience will realise why they were angry at the wrong person.

The Terminal. I dont really have much to say about this but I was totally amused by the movie(Catherine Zeta Jones is so pretty man!). Amazing and Hilarious. Go watch it if u have'nt!

Damn, im really getting mouldy now. I haven been going out of my house for 2 whole days man. Wed, i have this museum trip with my sec sch class. I hope its a success cos i really don't want to end up playing lan and i hope the admission for the art museum is free since we are old boys of sji and art museum resides in the old sji complex.

I AM SOOOOOOO BORED!

Bold As Love - A Jimi Hendrix Classic!

ANGER!

He smiles, towering in shiny metallic purple armor.
Green jealousy, envy waits behind every door, her fiery Green gown
snares at the grassy ground.

Blue are the life giving waters, taken for granted,
they quietly understand.

A once happy Turquoise army lay opposite and ready
but wonder why the fight is on.

But they're are all bold as love
they're all bold as love
Yeah, they're all bold as love
Just ask the axis

My Red is so confident, that he flashes tokens of war
and ribbons of euphoria
orange is young and full of daring
but very unsteady for the first go around.

My Yellow in this case is not so mellow in fact I'm trying to say,
it's frightened like me, and all these emotions of mine
keep tolling me from giving my life to a Rainbow like you,

But I'm A...yeah
I'm Bold as Love, yeah, yeah
Well I'm Bold, Bold as Love
Hear me talking
I'm Bold as love,
Just ask the axis, he knows everything.
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah

This song is another classic by Hendrix. Even after many years since Hendrix's demise, people around the world still plays his songs. His greatest hits during his music career are timeless and soulful, which makes his stand out amongst the rest.

John Mayer did a cover for this too. Personally i think both Hendrix and him are great, just that Mayer's guitar tone is not of the same tone as Hendrix's. Even though people had commented that Mayer's version was better because of his impressive vocals, i think otherwise.

Here's the video to the music.

Jimi Hendrix's Version



John Mayer Covering the song.

EA Games: Those soniyerbitchernayis capitalists!

Fuck

I hate EA Games right now. Big coporate company monopolise most of the favourite games but in the end, it doesnt perform as good as it should be. It shows only one thing, it wants to gain as much profit as they can by selling bugged and unstable games.

Soniyerbitchernayi!

In order to fix those god damned bugs, i have to download patches. Being a small market Singapore is, servers are located overseas, i.e in Hong Kong and Japan. So that means my download speed will decrease. Not only that, in order to download at a higher rate, one must pay more to enjoy greater speed. Damn those capitalist!

Whatever man!

I went jamming just now with my old buddies and 1 new guy. This new guy is also another soniyerbitchernayi. Jamming is costly and with only 2 hours to spare, one should take jamming seriously and not a session to fuck around. Carrying a guitar and playing the guitar is 2 different things. Apparently, this guy has the talent to carry his guitar around with an ego unimaginable but when its the time to play, he starts to ka jiao everyone. The drummer was on time and he was'nt, so he thought the drummer screwed up and then start shouting fuck this n fuck that. you suck n all that. Man, damn it i was pissed but as usual, i always smile. So i said why dont u start off with a lick, and we all will improvise. That guy look at me for a few seconds and decided to play some lick of his.
I thought it was quite impressive because his ideas was quite refreshing but his stupid ego came back again. When the drummer starts off, then followed by me, that soniyerbitchernayi say shut the fuck up, dont disturb me and said that his lick was good, so just let me solo first for a while.

I could'nt take it anymore, so the drummer and I just left without paying.

I'm going to sleep right now, tml there's a hell lot of activities. Now i am wondering whether i should just go to swee lee n buy a new axe. Sunday's jamming is another headache because i haven got my new axe. Damn sian, i have absolute no confidence of bringing my Aria to jam, damnit.

kk, i'm tired. bb

Beck a.k.a The Mongolian Chop Squad

I've just finished watching the whole season of the anime, "Beck" or better known as "Mongolian Chop Squad". The characters in there are so captivating that I felt sad when the last episode ended.It was about the life changing experiences that happened to this young Japanese boy called Koyuki. It all started with him finding a lost weird looking dog. Its owner, Ray, apparently a former band member of a disbanded Japanese band(lim peh forget the name) and at the same time happened to know one of the member of Dying Breed, Eddie (not van halen pls!) was delighted of course. This is also the time when Koyuki was appalled by the music Ray plays and enchanted by the way Ray plays his guitar. And then Koyuki went on to find himself on a journey of rock n roll, guitar playing and the perils faced when record deals and the danger of losing their own lives plays an important part not just on their music and survival, but also on the romance that is brewing between Koyuki and Ray's sister, Maho-chan.

Watch it here

Lim peh can feel for the characters, especially Koyuki because once u pick up the guitar and have a passion for it, its never going to be the same. I'm not talking about dreams of being in a glam rock band or enjoying the rock n roll lifestyle of LSDs, beers and chicks. Its about the feeling, a sense of satisfaction of playing music and not be embarrassed of what genre i'm playing. Koyuki went through a lot of hard work, running from places to places, envying guitarists from around his neighbourhood and also from his school. Along the way, he learnt through many teachers, embarrassing himself in front of auditions but still came out strong as an important member and of course a very brave and passionate soul of Beck

Prom night was fun lah. That hotel room Dinah booked in Ritz Carlton was really a sweet suite. Feel like a country pumpkin when i went there coz everything in there was awesome. The scenery up there was breathtaking, the bathroom of that suite was even better. Elvan n wei sin had alot of fun in that bathroom heh! After that was prom night liao lor. Then finish liao, i decided to go for the post prom party. Never been to clubbing before, so i just try. DXO was pretty small and the band playing there was like shit. The singer was asking more ppl to come n mosh at the dance floor, but no one was that enthu lah.

now sian liao. im gg out liao, bb.

Demise of a blog and loving jack black's worshipping of the "Satan"

there are 2 soniyerbitchernayis here trying to ka jiao(disturb) me. But these 2 nayis are my acquaintances(or are they?), who are trying to nose around my blog for the latest gossips or personal thoughts that they hope i post it up here.

nope so sorry. i find it difficult to write personal thoughts right here, i.e who i boh su ka(don't like) lah, who i su ka(like) lah, or i want to kill that guy lah, or this guy/girl is so n so lah.

HAHAHA, u can never find out!

I decided to give up trying to log into my another blog. Its been ages since I have logged into that and consequently i have forgotten both my username n password, coz i dont use "vaineo" as my username. So too bad lor, its gone forever. anyway its kind of useless.

anyone reading this should go watch Tenacious D and the pick of destiny. Its M18 though. extremely funny, stupid plot but yet hilarious and still keeps u entertained. what u expect mah, ben stiller production leh! There's this quote i like from the movie; "the little voice in your heart that says have sex all day or fuck you"
It was talking about how Satan, like God is in anyone's heart and not just material stuffs that signifies Satan.

How true.

Life After As...Blissfulness

i rejected fender. The feel and the chemistry is just right for me, but the sound is very disappointing. Too twangy for the distortion, too muddy for the overdrive.

anyhow, life after As is pretty blissful. Ever since the end of As, my days are packed with all kinds of activities. Sibei busy one, finally today can have a day by myself.

the other day, xl, bill n me went jamming. Stupid la, waste my time n money. A lesson learnt though. Never go fucking jamming without a proper drummer or singer. bill was whacking the cymbals so hard until my fucking ears was going deaf. feel damn pissed off lor. but we did a couple of songs, which was rather successful. we played sweet child o' mine, knocking on heaven's door and some improvisation on different keys.
Before that jamming session, we had kbox and some lan with some ppl from our class la. We sang quite a lot, some of the songs damn crappy. Lucky i left for the jamming or not I have to sing that jennifer lopez song.

sian la. i dunno what to blog also lor. lucky next week got class chalet, or not i also dunno what to do. now i feel that go into NS earlier is actually better la. Faster go in, faster come out mah. Sian, somemore when i go into NS, is not straight into BMT lor, is into that PTP, coz lim bei fail napfa.

WASSUP!!!

Vai neo is back again.

(applause!)

Kum Xia!! (Thank you in Hokkien).

OK la, i know its not very funny but I'm too happy liao. A levels going to finish by tomorrow! I dont have to take physics, chemistry and my mother tongue for the rest of my life!

I've nothing to blog actually lah. Tomorrow my paper is in the afternoon so I can slack abit. I have not touch anything yet since my 2nd last paper which is physics paper 3. Its ok though, coz tml's only mcq.

Anyway, alvin lee's going to sell me his fender tml. I fought with my parents because of that. I know its 2nd hand but that doesnt meant it has to be as cheap as possible. They dont understand how Fender guitars work and its feel and their tone is fucking superb. Selling at 1.2 k for a 2.5k guitar is actually a good steal. I still get the certificate of authencity and a hard case.
Actually if swee lee is offering JEM guitars for less than $1500, i might consider ditching alvin's deal, since i hate single coil guitars.

ok, thats it.

Sebastian Bach of Skid Row Attacking a Fan. \m/


Marty Friedman and Paul Gilbert in some Jap Show. (its ok if u dun understand, coz i dont. Just listen to the guitars.)

Wah! Damn Jia lat!.

"The kidnappers of an Italian journalist in Afghanistan have offered to free him in exchange for a Christian convert who fled the country, an aid agency says.

Photojournalist Gabriele Torsello was seized last week while travelling on a bus in southern Afghanistan.

The kidnappers will free Mr Torsello, a Muslim convert, if Abdul Rahman returns from Italy where he was granted asylum earlier this year, the aid agency says.
Mr Rahman had escaped a possible death sentence for becoming a Christian. "

Read full story here

Will they(Italian Authorities) actually meet the kidnappers' demands by handing over Mr Abdul Rahman?

Is it fair to cause someone to walk to his death (assuming that the death sentence is in effect against the christian convert) in order to save another person's life?

It is not a demand that a decent human being would ever consider," the politician, Rocco Buttiglione, told the BBC.

"We are not ready to offer one human life for another human life... It is barbarian, inhuman, and it grinds against any accepted convention on human rights."

What about Mr. Torsello then?

Phucking Long Post. But patience is a virtue, you know?

"SONIYERBITCHERNAYI!!!!!"

That's Tamil btw. Its the only word i can swear confidently, thanks to my secondary school friend.

I just got back almost all my papers. I did'nt phucking pass most of the subject! How can that be!?! Especially my Physics, my marks is so low until i myself and Mr Wong can't believe it. No, i'm not trying to self-deprecate myself on the net, but seriously I'm stiffled by my really poor results.(ok im exaggerating). So now, I have no choice lor, have to consult Mr Wong almost daily to pass my Physics. =(

Today, GP lesson got me awe-struck for a while. Mr Fahy discussed about a theory that is called "Relativist Fallacy". That topic was so intellectually stimulating that i got lost for a moment, at times not sure I fully understood the theory. But this theory seems to explain why most of us always fail essays and the ka ni na application qns.

This "Relativist Fallacy" theory was explained in an article written by Stephen Law. He explained that a truth itself may be true for some people but it might not be true for others. He then goes on by saying that people always believe that their conclusion is true simply by believing it without any substantial evidence. In other words, these people have committed a logical fallacy!

This fallacy, whether committed knowingly or not, is actually an error which a person conclude their views by going with their personal feelings. So in other words, if it is based on their personal feelings, its is not the truth at all, because arguably, their evidence is not based on actual facts but just on the individual's feelings or maybe intuition.

The funny part comes in...
If a person based on his/her personal feelings, which is actually not true to a certain extent, then how could he/she deny something that is true in the first place? In other words, if he/she said something that is not accurate but yet conclude its accurate(perhaps unknowingly), how could he/she deny something that is actually accurate especially when the accurate claim is based on actual scientific facts.

Isnt the person contradicting himself?

Some really cheem stuffs. Actually hor, i dont know if i explained it correctly or not, but this is what i understand about Relativist Fallacy. Correct me if i'm wrong.

Enough about these cheem stuffs lah! Cockanathan. J Chua came over to my hse to interview me(yes i know u would go what the phuck!). This newbie director came my hse to redo the shootings because due to his inexperience of handling the cameras and gears( he doesnt know how to use the tripod and took a couple of hrs figuring how to set up the camera properly), he has to do it again today! Anyway, i had to say about my struggle towards the higher class of society. But i dont think i ever said things on that because all I did was to introduce myself, about my school, complain about anything and play the guitar. In the end, it seems like J chua wanna market me out into the music industry coz most of what he did was on my guitars.

ok lah. going to 8pm liao, i still haven touch physics tys, later mr wong give me that hopeless look again. =/

PRELIMS END LIAO!

"Jimi Hendrix passed suddenly on September 18, 1970 while touring through London,
England. When news of the tragedy made its way to James “Al” Hendrix, (Jimi's
father) back in the United States, the wheels for a lasting memorial began to
take shape. Al Hendrix requested that Jimi's body be brought back to his
birthplace of Seattle, Washington so that a burial at a new family plot, located
at Greenwood Memorial Park in Renton could be performed... "

Read more here.

R.I.P Hendrix.

Prelims finally ended, concluding one of my worst nightmares. Soon, a new impending doom will be bestowed on me. KA NI NA! The phucking A levels is starting in 1 month!!! ARGHH....

OMG! I just love Stevie Ray Vaughan! His music rejuvenate my Sunday morning, at least it did made me settle down to read my oh-so-boring Physics Notes. hmm..
too bad he's gone now. =(

I changed my template, though it isn't much of a change. But i like it simple and plain, with no fancy animations or complicated javas trolling around the whole site. I just love the Blogger Beta thing, it really makes my life way easier. No more searching through the HTML codes! All I need is to click a button, type in a few words and tada, its done.

The rest of my prelims will commence next Tuesday. I dont think i will make it anyway, especially for Physics. Mr Wong should have taught us since J1 and not arrive at Term 3 this year to replace Mr Tan.

My GP is a goner man!!! I'm going to fail it badly and mr fahy is going to scream at me again! I did a question which required me to comment on the comparison between a pragmatist and an idealist. Initially, i wanted to pick the question on the war on terrorism, but I can't remember the names of some of the terrorist groups. =(

Ok this entry is actually quite pointless. I blog another one when I have the time.

Here is Tommy Emmanuel doing a Chet Atkins cover. One of my favourite songs. =)

Hey!
If anyone is reading this, i have just set up a new musicians' blog. Its still new and i need help to run it too. But you can take a look here.

ARGHH! I got physics mock exam in a few hours time and I have not fully understand the concepts of Archimedes' Principles nor Einstein's
energy vs mass concept!!

not going to blog much, but im going to post some nice videos.

CHOPIN!! My favourite pianist after watching the movie "The Pianist". My favourite piece? Nocturne in C-Sharp Minor!!



not by chopin though, but he was flawless.

The 5 browns!!


no ending though =(

and of course not forgetting my favourite band! SKID ROW! Original by Jimi Hendrix. I just love the voice of Bach. Enjoy.



Back to mugging =(

"boy, you zhup buey he liao leh. happy birthday hor." (Son, you're 18 already. happy birthday.)

Upon hearing that, my hair starts to stand, goosebumps starts to appear, my skin turned paler than usual and my heart almost skipped a damn beat. I thought to myself, "woah, i'm 18 already?!?"

Albeit the insignificance of that day to others, turning 18 and being 18 meant alot to me. Besides being able to consume and buy alcohol legitimately(FINALLY!!), watching m18 films(most of them have better plots than PG films) and probably doing things under-18s can't do, 18 was a milestone number. To many, 18 is just probably another number, another year to pass, but to me its a period of transition of becoming an adult; maturity and responsibility.

Having said that, I would admit that I have the worst birthday ever. I don't really understand why people always tend to think otherwise when you are actually sincerely trying to be a friend, a REAL FRIEND.

On a lighter note, I went out with 2 of my classmates for a heavy lunch. We had it at Seoul Garden and we ate for 4 hours!(+, - 1 hr. can't remember). Actually this was'nt planned, it was just a spontaneous decision. Since we were so famished, a heavy lunch was our top choice. Upon reaching there, we voraciously ate as much as we could to fill our stomach and we made eggs from our ladle. Even the manager there was impressed with our impressive culinary skills! I promised to put up some pictures once my friend had uploaded it. It was so cute that we were relunctant to eat it. hahah!

We ate for 4 hours sia, so we decided to head to the nearby library to mug for our mock exams. haha, was productive actually leh.

Anyway, I was blog surfing and I came across this blog entry which had a proposed speech to the UN for the Prime Minister of Israel. I was stunned for a while after reading it and I would agree with what Ben Caspit had wrote about.

This is the speech Ben Caspit wrote:

Ladies and gentlemen, leaders of the world. I, the Prime Minister of Israel, am speaking to you from Jerusalem in the face of the terrible pictures from Kfar Kana. Any human heart, wherever it is, must sicken and recoil at the sight of such pictures. There are no words of comfort that can mitigate the enormity of this tragedy. Still, I am looking you straight in the eye and telling you that the State of Israel will continue its military campaign in Lebanon.

The Israel Defense Forces will continue to attack targets from which missiles and Katyusha rockets are fired at hospitals, old age homes and kindergartens in Israel. I have instructed the security forces and the IDF to continue to hunt for the Katyusha stockpiles and launch sites from which these savages are bombarding the State of Israel.

We will not hesitate, we will not apologize and we will not back off. If they continue to launch missiles into Israel from Kfar Kana, we will continue to bomb Kfar Kana. Today, tomorrow and the day after tomorrow. Here, there and everywhere. The children of Kfar Kana could now be sleeping peacefully in their homes, unmolested, had the agents of the devil not taken over their land and turned the lives of our children into hell.

Ladies and gentlemen, it's time you understood: the Jewish state will no longer be trampled upon. We will no longer allow anyone to exploit population centers in order to bomb our citizens. No one will be able to hide anymore behind women and children in order to kill our women and children. This anarchy is over. You can condemn us, you can boycott us, you can stop visiting us and, if necessary, we will stop visiting you.

A voice for six million citizens Today I am serving as the voice of six million bombarded Israeli citizens who serve as the voice of six million murdered Jews who were melted down to dust and ashes by savages in Europe. In both cases, those responsible for these evil acts were, and are, barbarians devoid of all humanity, who set themselves one simple goal: to wipe the Jewish race off the face of the earth, as Adolph Hitler said, or to wipe the State of Israel off the map, as Mahmoud Ahmedinjad proclaims.

And you - just as you did not take those words seriously then, you are ignoring them again now. And that, ladies and gentlemen, leaders of the world, will not happen again. Never again will we wait for bombs that never came to hit the gas chambers. Never again will we wait for salvation that never arrives. Now we have our own air force.

The Jewish people are now capable of standing up to those who seek their destruction - those people will no longer be able to hide behind women and children. They will no longer be able to evade their responsibility. Every place from which a Katyusha is fired into the State of Israel will be a legitimate target for us to attack. This must be stated clearly and publicly, once and for all. You are welcome to judge us, to ostracize us, to boycott us and to vilify us. But to kill us? Absolutely not.

Four months ago I was elected by hundreds of thousands of citizens to the office of Prime Minister of the government of Israel, on the basis of my plan for unilaterally withdrawing from 90 percent of the areas of Judea and Samaria, the birth place and cradle of the Jewish people; to end most of the occupation and to enable the Palestinian people to turn over a new leaf and to calm things down until conditions are ripe for attaining a permanent settlement between us.

The Prime Minister who preceded me, Ariel Sharon, made a full withdrawal from the Gaza Strip back to the international border, and gave the Palestinians there a chance to build a new reality for themselves. The Prime Minister who preceded him, Ehud Barak, ended the lengthy Israeli presence in Lebanon and pulled the IDF back to the international border, leaving the land of the cedars to flourish, develop and establish its democracy and its economy.

What did the State of Israel get in exchange for all of this? Did we win even one minute of quiet? Was our hand, outstretched in peace, met with a handshake of encouragement? Ehud Barak's peace initiative at Camp David let loose on us a wave of suicide bombers who smashed and blew to pieces over 1,000 citizens, men, women and children. I don't remember you being so enraged then. Maybe that happened because we did not allow TV close-ups of the dismembered body parts of the Israeli youngsters at the Dolphinarium? Or of the shattered lives of the people butchered while celebrating the Passover seder at the Park Hotel in Netanya? What can you do - that's the way we are. We don't wave body parts at the camera. We grieve quietly.

We do not dance on the roofs at the sight of the bodies of our enemy's children - we express genuine sorrow and regret. That is the monstrous behavior of our enemies. Now they have risen up against us.

Tomorrow they will rise up against you. You are already familiar with the murderous taste of this terror. And you will taste more. In a loud and clear voice And Ariel Sharon's withdrawal from Gaza. What did it get us? A barrage of Kassem missiles fired at peaceful settlements and the kidnapping of soldiers. Then too, I don't recall you reacting with such alarm.

And for six years, the withdrawal from Lebanon has drawn the vituperation and crimes of a dangerous, extremist Iranian agent, who took over an entire country in the name of religious fanaticism and is trying to take Israel hostage on his way to Jerusalem - and from there to Paris and London.

An enormous terrorist infrastructure has been established by Iran on our border, threatening our citizens, growing stronger before our very eyes, awaiting the moment when the land of the Ayatollahs becomes a nuclear power in order to bring us to our knees. And make no mistake - we won't go down alone. You, the leaders of the free and enlightened world, will go down along with us.

So today, here and now, I am putting an end to this parade of hypocrisy. I don't recall such a wave of reaction in the face of the 100 citizens killed every single day in Iraq. Sunnis kill Shiites who kill Sunnis, and all of them kill Americans - and the world remains silent. And I am hard pressed to recall a similar reaction when the Russians destroyed entire villages and burned down large cities in order to repress the revolt in Chechnya. And when NATO bombed Kosovo for almost three months and crushed the civilian population - then you also kept silent.

What is it about us, the Jews, the minority, the persecuted, that arouses this cosmic sense of justice in you? What do we have that all the others don't?

In a loud clear voice, looking you straight in the eye, I stand before you openly and I will not apologize. I will not capitulate. I will not whine.

This is a battle for our freedom. For our humanity. For the right to lead normal lives within our recognized, legitimate borders. It is also your battle. I pray and I believe that now you will understand that. Because if you don't, you may regret it later, when it's too late.

Stunned already??
Oh btw, i would start adding links and putting some images and videos here lah. Coming soon lah, when i have time ok?

HELLO!

mr vai neo is back once again. i've just realised i didnt blog for more than 1 month liao! no la, its not because im busy or what, its because i don't have the passion to blog anymore. anyway, im contemplating to create a new blog on something different, not something about my pathetic boring life, but on something of a larger scale run by my close friends and of course yours truly.

i hate my blog's name, can't wait to change it. it's like some kind of existential angst that i was feeling long long time ago. =
i hate going to school nowadays. i hate the peer pressure and the overemphasis of the consequences of failing my A lvls. I shudder in fear everytime my science tutors starts teaching new concepts regarding the last few remaining chapters. Each new concept is like a hurdle to me; i'm never a fast learner that is. Everytime i dont understand a new concept, i would just give up, yielding shitty results. Mid year was another failure. I did tried for it, i start to dig up and consolidate all my notes and started to scutinize every single details i might have missed out in past exams. The only problem was my ongoing hatred for JC education. This stops me from going on and on in my studies. I was comparing how liberal some of my friends are now, i.e besides still being obliged to memorize and do shitloads of sums and essays, they were learning and absorbing new concepts without so much pressure and without rigid rubrics. Although they were so liberal, they fell into other temptations, i.e drugs, cigarettes and alcohols.

I envy jeremy chua's "courage". I wonder how he could quit JC to pursue his passion in scriptwriting, even though he was promoted. I wished i could do that, to pursue my passion and not get stuck in some pressurized education system. It might seem too naive in saying that, because i seemed to be someone who would want to "enjoy" life first, then work hard for my retirement funds, but JC education is just not the right path. Screw this, too late to regret now.

aiyah, life damn sian now. yu hsien going back to states liao, can no longer come out and have a drink and chit chat with j chua and other ppl from the "chua chu kang" gang + other 409 ppl. world cup ended too and i missed the shouts from my neighbours, it gives me that kind of heartwarming feeling. hahah! zidane apologized but the world is still not happy, so sad. =S . i can't wait to reach 18 too, its coming steadfast, too fast though. Can't wait to buy myself a bottle of tiger(yu hsien its a good beer ok) and drink with my dear friends.

ok la, talk so much cock.
BYEZ!

Oh yes, notice my blog is almost 2 years old. =|

hai...
finally the long awaited weekends came.
feel like the start of june holidays actually, cos' weekends means no school. after all the endless amount of homeworks, tests, it just drives me crazy.

alot of things happened over the weeks. dinah got infatuated by her eyecandy, but then felt that it was the end of the world when she read something. people who are classmates cum 1st aiders fought. i got raped, mr fahy as usual still foams at his mouth when he talks with such ardent and dramatic expression.

talking about mr fahy, my gp teacher. this ang moh teacher is from ireland, been in sg even before i was born. he claims that he read more books than anyone in singapore. haha! i wonder if its really true. anyway, this teacher is damn eccentric(wonder if eccentric should be used here though, coz he appears to be more dramatic for the purpose of the lesson. maybe i should know more of his personal life). he always act out some funny things in the middle of his lesson, most of the time raising his voice and shocking the sian 1/2 people in the class, esp. yours truly. anyway, maybe i got brainwashed by him, or its because of the environment i'm in, i can't believe i have actually develop an interest in academically inclined books such as river out of eden by richard dawkins or maybe writings from the famous stephen hawkings. whats happening to me?!?

enough bout fahy, coz i can go on and on about him.
i just upgraded my music equipment and now i could use my distortion pedals. wah, i tell you the pedal makes my tone goes wahhhhh!, considering that my guitar only have single pickups, which sucks alot in tone if you want to play rock. anyway, after what my guitar teacher said to me about the practical and potential prospects of music in today's competitive world, i think pursuing a music career is out of the question. if i were to pay so much to just get into berklee and then achieve nothing in the real world, then its not worth it. coz its like i have only 2 years of exp in playing an instrutment, which is too little.

hai, i gtg now lah. going to ride to my fav hangout now, west coast park! i want to ride to east coast, but considering the distance and the inconvenience of asking for directions and travelling with vehicles that are bigger than me and most of them looks like they were about to crash into me, i decided F*** man. west coast park is a nice and quiet place, though the shoreline not ready till end of this yr, i still like that place.

oh yah, those who are fans of both hoobastank and RHCP, u must buy their latest albums. GOOD STUFF MAN!

oh yah, hey alvin! didnt expect u to come here though. anyway, i always thought ur blog link had two 8s, now i realise why i could'nt go ur blog. sheesh.

Life's been very fucked up right now.
recently, i could'nt take it anymore, so i blew up.
It cost me an almost injured eye and a friendship.
friendship that was meant to last forever...

even though we patched up, the friendship was'nt like before.
it just became more superficial.

exams come and go.
i have been fucking around too much.
i've just realised why i am wasting 2 years of my short life.
since i've almost wasted almost 3/2 of it, why dont i just make the best out of it.

LOVE
i'm in love with a beautiful sweet girl.
right across my class, it's her class.
i still dont have the guts to her.
it just so...,
whenever she's so close to me.
i just don't have the damn guts.

i read kai chuen's blog just now and what he wrote there makes me ponder on some of the shit that happened to me. It was about how he said about the many shit i have already saw in NCC. Basically, as a cadet, you don't have to plan or tolerate cb people under your responsibility. Basically, you just go there for your cca and waste your time. But as leader, you start to realise how stupid things can get. The red tapes, the communication stuff, the programs and the problems go on.
Actually the main problem is the people you are going to deal with. They just don't give you the fucking respect you want when you want to get serious. Especially, when you want to get things in control so you can plan things well. Some people just don't understand how to limit themselves when they are required to be serious.
It just pisses me off. I could remember how things started to go wrong when 1 person have to say the wrong things. Its ok to joke once in a while, but when things go overboard, it can get very fucked up. My last year in NCC was really screwed up. Alot people just don't understand how difficult my post were. My stupid rank does'nt make me very happy either. I remembered a quote that said about how rank and respect is different and how respect is earned regardless of your cheebye rank. This quote make sense totally to me then.
Well, you must be wondering why i wrote this long piece of crap. Part of it relates to the problem i am facing now and part of it was because my junior told me the cadets i have trained has screwed up the unit as specialists. Usually, anyone who fucking hates NCC and all kinds of uniformed grp stuffs(like me) will not give a damn about it. But inside me, i still feel that i have some strings attached in ncc and sji itself. What my junior had said makes me guilty and angry. I'm guilty because i have not done my job well. All the recommendations and praises from my senior and officers are all wasted.

My last year in ncc really screwed up my life pretty much and so it greatly affect my attitude in last year in sji. My graduation year wasnt a fucking good one.

Aiyah, fuck la. I don't know why im typing so damn long. anyway, i will just end now.