for us and you and me.

I heard skid row over the radio just now. Its a surprise actually because most local radio stations dont really play 80's heavy metal. All hail power 98!

sian, tml i got army marathon run. But I would rather run than to do guard duty on Sunday. I was so damn lucky to escape it even though i have to report at 5.30am at esplanade.

1 more week left to end of bslc. I'm so delighted that its going to be over soon. Actually, I realised the training throughout the entire bslc isnt that tough. Eventually the day will end, the training will stop and you will still be alive. It isnt that bad actually.

What really makes life unbearable in sispec is the people. I am not talking about people being competitive, its about relationship. I think all those team based lectures and activities we attended didnt touch alot on human relationships. Almost all the time, everyone will be hating each other in the company. Instructors hates the OC, our PC dont like the instructors, instructors dont like each other and then they don't know how to talk to each other, leaving things unplanned and made our training really inefficient. Instructors, being experienced sergeants themselves are expected to show examples. But yet, they induce feelings that ignite more hatred towards our OC.

Things dont go too well amongst the trainees too. I hate my section but actually its only 1 person. It made me realise that the intelligence of a group is based on the collective intelligence of a person. Some people just talked too much. The i/cs are given the privilege to plan and manage activities during training. How they make decision is up to their abilities and they have many responsibilities to shoulder too. But yet some people would tend to voice their unhappiness and claim they could do better in this and that. Apparently, they hadn't been an i/c before and therefore do not understand the stress.

It sucked even more if you are a buddy of someone that the whole section hates. Yes, i know the section is frustrated with him for being uncooperative and selfish but that doesnt mean they have all the rights to bully him or ostracized him. The best way is to talk about it and see how can the problem be solved. Sometimes i find it difficult to react to situations when I have to be friendly to both sides. Its almost impossible. Talking to him makes me feel uncomfortable because the section will start to make noises and make some really juvenile comments that sometimes pisses me off.

I'm glad i'm going to leave sispec in a week's time. I dont think i will go to aslc because i said no to being a commander in the express interest form. Seriously, i just want a peaceful life in NS and all these people I have known for the entire 10 weeks in bslc will be forgotten forever.

The sun will shine and the birds will sing.

The other night before I went Tekong, my platoon mates were mocking at me about my embarrassing night at double O. It was so embarrassing that it will only happen if I'm under heavy alcohol influence. Blame it on the duty free beers at chevrons.

But on a different tangent, one of the mocking party went nearer to me and pat me on my shoulders and said something which I felt nothing for a split second and then felt really miserable during the after effect.

It was about this particular person. Somehow amidst the confusion that night at double O due to my soberness, I remembered us talking about her(I dont remember why we were talking about her) on the couch and he did the uninitiated. He went on to msg her asking whether if she knows me. If i were more conscious that night, i could have probably berated at him.

But that wasnt my point on why I felt miserable. But if I were to tell anyone that I have only known the existence of this person for the whole of my jc life and talked to her for less than 3 times and I felt miserable because this person is leaving for somewhere to study for a period of time, what will they say?

I mean I dont know why I felt miserable. That night my Ipod coincidentally shuffled to Jay Zhou - Kai bu liao kou and then to Dirty Vegas - Days go by. I know its a roll-eyes kind of thing but when these kind of songs starts to play and you already feel so emo about something, it just can't be help.

Sia la, so emo. If she ever reads this, i will be so embarrassed mann. I think she will just freak out and faint on the spot if I were to admit. She will never expect it lor. Its like whenever both of us walk past each other, it will be like a stranger to stranger kind of thing, like in the streets. No hellos, no smile, nothing.

Anyway, I got selected to go for a PTI selection course. How and why I was selected remains a mystery. I only obtained a pass for IPPT, not even close to silver mann. My hopes of going to airforce and navy was dashed when my friend told me if i fail my selection course, I will go straight to ASLC. NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! I can't believe me going to taiwan and dig holes and not shower for 7 days.

Bah, so much so for putting not interested to Inf/Guards in my express interest form.

Going back in an hour's time and my csm's words always resound in my mind whenever i walk through the gate, "Gentlemen, welcome to another phuck day in the army."

I am so excited

As what the blog title have mentioned, I am going to embark on a holiday on our very own outback, P. Tekong. Its a fun filled and laughter kind of holiday, a once in a lifetime opportunity for certain members of the society. Jointly organized and supported by the people loving and decades long ruling government of our beloved island and conducted by the super efficient and knows-how-to-wayang-the-right-way organization of our beautiful country.

Best of all, its FREE!
Dont ask me why, my fellow taxpayers.

The catalogue of this holiday read as follows:

The itenary of this exciting and thrilling trip ensures that you would not be idling around and doing nothing. Your legs will be sore with dead skin(natural exfoliation, girls are you paying close attention to this?) and your uniforms can be thrown away after this trip because it is impossible to wash away the stains. Most importantly, you will be meeting the indigenous habitants on this sunny island called P. Tekong. They are called Tekonreans. They have either sharp piercing thorns on their mouths or have 4 limbs. They roam around freely and loves to pop by and say HI!!!! when you are at the least attentive. Sometimes after saying hello, you will start to itch and a slight reddish bump will appear. Its ok actually but please do caution if you see a black and white stripes species saying hello to you. Furthermore, the ones with 4 limbs and looks like a pig says HI if you have food around you. So if you want to know more about them, please do not throw away your food the proper way and sleep half naked in the jungle.

Now, aren't you excited? We do provide personal body maintainance by making you do pressups(pushups) in the middle of the jungle. How nice. If you are homosexual and the voices of men shouting at you turns you on, dont worry. Even though you are faraway from civilian life, you can still feel at home because voices of men shouting at the top of their voice is abundant.

Do u love mud? Tekong has abundant sources of it. You will have the chance to be stuck in it, sleep on it and maybe have some of it around your lips.

Please do bring more underwears and socks. Do not try to bring your lovers along unless you are homesexual. If you think you are too obsessed with the female gender, this holiday will be your best solution psychologically because in this tour group, we believe in a single gender.

A 4days 3 nights trip which starts tml.

Come on everyone, repeat after me.

I L-O-V-E S*F
I L-O-V-E S*F
I L-O-V-E S*F

Hooray!

Im going to book in real early tonight. SO HAPPY! I feel sad if they let me go home, you know? I smile when they give me extra duties, you know? I smile even more when they burn my weekends and deprive me of the outside world. They keep me from all evils in the civilian life. SEE? I love being a soldier.

SO NICE!

Not Ready To Make Nice

If people were to ask me what have I learnt during my Army days, I would say i learnt to become more selfish.
Well i think its pretty true. Whenever I hear someone asking for help, my ears just shut off completely. It can't be help, especially when I am so shagged out and just found a nice and comfortable spot to sit and then just when I am about to doze off, somebody just had to shout for volunteers.
Sometimes when I just need a cold drink and there aren't enough for everyone out in the field, it will be an every man for himself thing. Unless its my section mates, I would not even bother sharing my drinks. Just can't be help.

Field camp this week was like a holiday camp. Revellie, breakfast, sleep the whole morning while waiting for our turn to do fire movement. Then lunch. then sleep again until its time for night operations. The only highlight of the whole field camp was the ambush ops. I got to move the whole section to do ambush at night. set up trip flare, claymore mines and wear night vision goggles and then wait for the enemy to appear. Sadly i did not manage to bring my section back to HQ because i was so disoriented at night. bah.

1 more field camp to go, which is at Tekong and 3 more weeks to the end of BSLC. Yay!

and yes, if you are watching that propaganda show about the army on channel 8, you can see my BMT company there. All of our sgts were involved in the filming and the part when the actor passed out from BMT is when our company took part in the filming too. That is the day when I had to give up my admin time for the filming.