for us and you and me.

I heard skid row over the radio just now. Its a surprise actually because most local radio stations dont really play 80's heavy metal. All hail power 98!

sian, tml i got army marathon run. But I would rather run than to do guard duty on Sunday. I was so damn lucky to escape it even though i have to report at 5.30am at esplanade.

1 more week left to end of bslc. I'm so delighted that its going to be over soon. Actually, I realised the training throughout the entire bslc isnt that tough. Eventually the day will end, the training will stop and you will still be alive. It isnt that bad actually.

What really makes life unbearable in sispec is the people. I am not talking about people being competitive, its about relationship. I think all those team based lectures and activities we attended didnt touch alot on human relationships. Almost all the time, everyone will be hating each other in the company. Instructors hates the OC, our PC dont like the instructors, instructors dont like each other and then they don't know how to talk to each other, leaving things unplanned and made our training really inefficient. Instructors, being experienced sergeants themselves are expected to show examples. But yet, they induce feelings that ignite more hatred towards our OC.

Things dont go too well amongst the trainees too. I hate my section but actually its only 1 person. It made me realise that the intelligence of a group is based on the collective intelligence of a person. Some people just talked too much. The i/cs are given the privilege to plan and manage activities during training. How they make decision is up to their abilities and they have many responsibilities to shoulder too. But yet some people would tend to voice their unhappiness and claim they could do better in this and that. Apparently, they hadn't been an i/c before and therefore do not understand the stress.

It sucked even more if you are a buddy of someone that the whole section hates. Yes, i know the section is frustrated with him for being uncooperative and selfish but that doesnt mean they have all the rights to bully him or ostracized him. The best way is to talk about it and see how can the problem be solved. Sometimes i find it difficult to react to situations when I have to be friendly to both sides. Its almost impossible. Talking to him makes me feel uncomfortable because the section will start to make noises and make some really juvenile comments that sometimes pisses me off.

I'm glad i'm going to leave sispec in a week's time. I dont think i will go to aslc because i said no to being a commander in the express interest form. Seriously, i just want a peaceful life in NS and all these people I have known for the entire 10 weeks in bslc will be forgotten forever.