The sun will shine and the birds will sing.

The other night before I went Tekong, my platoon mates were mocking at me about my embarrassing night at double O. It was so embarrassing that it will only happen if I'm under heavy alcohol influence. Blame it on the duty free beers at chevrons.

But on a different tangent, one of the mocking party went nearer to me and pat me on my shoulders and said something which I felt nothing for a split second and then felt really miserable during the after effect.

It was about this particular person. Somehow amidst the confusion that night at double O due to my soberness, I remembered us talking about her(I dont remember why we were talking about her) on the couch and he did the uninitiated. He went on to msg her asking whether if she knows me. If i were more conscious that night, i could have probably berated at him.

But that wasnt my point on why I felt miserable. But if I were to tell anyone that I have only known the existence of this person for the whole of my jc life and talked to her for less than 3 times and I felt miserable because this person is leaving for somewhere to study for a period of time, what will they say?

I mean I dont know why I felt miserable. That night my Ipod coincidentally shuffled to Jay Zhou - Kai bu liao kou and then to Dirty Vegas - Days go by. I know its a roll-eyes kind of thing but when these kind of songs starts to play and you already feel so emo about something, it just can't be help.

Sia la, so emo. If she ever reads this, i will be so embarrassed mann. I think she will just freak out and faint on the spot if I were to admit. She will never expect it lor. Its like whenever both of us walk past each other, it will be like a stranger to stranger kind of thing, like in the streets. No hellos, no smile, nothing.

Anyway, I got selected to go for a PTI selection course. How and why I was selected remains a mystery. I only obtained a pass for IPPT, not even close to silver mann. My hopes of going to airforce and navy was dashed when my friend told me if i fail my selection course, I will go straight to ASLC. NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! I can't believe me going to taiwan and dig holes and not shower for 7 days.

Bah, so much so for putting not interested to Inf/Guards in my express interest form.

Going back in an hour's time and my csm's words always resound in my mind whenever i walk through the gate, "Gentlemen, welcome to another phuck day in the army."