Life of a patty in a burger.

Life is akin to a patty stuck between 2 slices of bread in a burger. Thats if you belong to the middle management in a hierarchy system. The taste of the burger depends on the patty. The slices of bread could be topped with savouring bits of sesame seeds and baked with a golden brown but if the patty doesnt taste as good as it seems, the burger wont taste as good as a whole.

Ive learnt that leadership and responsibility comes with increasing status of your chevrons. People look at you as a commander and to gain respect you must have a high standard of responsibility and maturity. I find it seemingly difficult to command a section of people who are older and more knowledgeable than I am. Its a tough learning process, very different from things ive learnt during my NCC days. Unfortunately, things are much worse in the middle than the top. Its like a bottleneck. From the top down, you get screwed pretty badly because from the bottom up, we are supposed to lead by example. Its not something you can negotiate about because if something goes awry, you will be the first to be blamed.

To be honest, I was sort of feeling proud and losing self respect just so because I was going to become a 3sg. It was a pretty naive thought actually. During my NCC days as a platoon sgt, I would be a fucking sadistic bastard. thinking respect is earned through means like that. But after months of interacting with people under me in the army, I realised it takes more than being physically fit to be a leader. I think it goes down the same way outside military world. I think ive learnt more on improving myself from my men than during my trainee days in a command school. This learning process wasnt as smooth as you would think. I get scolded by my boss, judged by people and be infamous for the wrong reasons.

Hmm, finally I found some time to type all these. I told my boss im taking off on Monday to rest. I need it mann. I'm going to play my guitar because its collecting dust for weeks. Also, I realised that Rihanna is so fucking hot. Heh.

bye!