Its a crying shame, to have hopeless sorrow.

I dont know how to put it in words but Bic Runga penned a line that really describes everything.

"Its a crying shame, to have hopeless sorrow."

I am going back to my unit tomorrow. Back into a shithole. I am going to miss my trainee life for the past 1 month because it was purely a break from shit. Even though I have to go through 3 exercises and stay in on some nights, I would still prefer to stay at camp X. And more shit is about to fall on me because i will be the guard comd for next sunday guards. I have only little experience on being a guard comd. Hai, i think i prepare to sign 3 extras la.

There is one thing that is bothering my mind right now. But i can't just type it down here. I think the only way to solve this is to avoid bad company. pretty easy ah. But sometimes walking on the line can make life pretty boring. Morals and life or 18 and life?