IT'S ABOUT YOU

what a boring day, isn't it?
School's sucks, especially with dogs in the class.

It seems that no one in the class can be trusted.
Even the closest.
Things have to turn out this way and they blamed me.
tsk.
Everything won't have happened if so and so don't do this.
Both sides are in the wrong and they insist that i started this.
Well,
on the contrary, i did confront him.
But they don't realise that i won't have confronted him without a damn reason.
Fucking mofos.

That mofo, Yu hsien.
Just think that they are right and i am wrong.
Holy shit.
In the first place, he's exagerating things so badly.
Giving his point of views that he actually heard something out of Shawn.
Its the conscience lah.
It goes to the original point. He classify me into his "attitude sucks" people and pinpointed me that i am in the wrong.
What the Fuck.
Yu Hsien wake up lah. That master is trying to brain wash you.
He's cunning remember?
And look what happened to the dogs?

I am stranded.
For goodness sake, i am really stranded.
Days later, its our farewell day. I read winston's blog and i agree with him.
We shan't hate anybody now. Its useless.
What's the point of hating that fuck face?
After all, he gained nothing but happiness.
Its easy to say but difficult to put it into action.
Ignoring them is an obstacle.
Their senseless yet tempting "hush-hush" is getting on my nerves.
But i cant do anything.
Cause i can't talk out of them and they admit that they can infer well because they are history students.
Arrogant Bastards.

Well, i believe that everything that goes around comes around.
His truimph, his evil grins, his master plans can be his trademark and a living proof that he is what-he-called-himself a genius or cunning.
Whatever.
But things don't last long.
Afterall, imperfection prevails, unless you have other views on this.

Honestly, i regret making fun of people like cyril and hating people like zihong or cho yao..
I realise after 2 years, they may seem fucked up on the outside but on the inside i think they are people who uphold good values.
I respect them.
Some people just cannot be trusted. Not one bit.
They are kind souls but backstabbing is their disguise.
You'll never know when they are going to strike.
You're just one poor soul stranded after being stabbed.
I'm not trying to generalise people but seriously history students are one of a kind.
They admit it themselves though.
Youre in my class and you will know it.
This ongoing-useless-getting nowhere things are happening.

I think its time for me to grow up.
Pointless to hate people like that.
I wasted my 1 week, looking at them.
My self esteem got the better of me.
I got tempted by their laughter and their looks at me.
He can go on with his blabbering about me but so what?
Theres no damage done.
Im still myself.
Ignoring them is damn difficult, i got tempted to use force.
I am in a dilema. I don't want to make a fool of myself.
I tried to control myself. Smiling more helps.
Moreover, i felt relieved that i confronted him.
At least i told him i hate him straight in his face.
Cold wars are a waste of time because you gained nothing and misunderstanding happened. In the end, people make a fool of themselves.

I don't know what kind of comments i will be inviting.
But this at least, tell those who are reading and is involved in this piece of crap,
what i am feeling.
And to tell you, that this thing is getting nowhere and both sides are in the wrong.

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